Enjoying the last few hours of my 23.

Hi seek,

Happy last few hours of 23.

Bye seek.

Happy 24th soon.

And i'm going to be a quarter century old in 2012.
... ... still counting... ...

I may just happen to put my job in jeopardy.
I may just happen to out myself in jeopardy too.

This is not me, yet again, i'm making the same speech about myself.
I'm so doomed.

I don't know where am i anymore.
I don't know where i stand.

I've made multiple promises to myself.
But apparently i'm keeping none.

What happened seekee tiong?
What went wrong? 

I need to read and have more time for myself.
I am so dead.

I'm such a half-hearted person.
Nothing is a completion.
I'm such a lazy bum.
Nothing is moving.
I'm such a loser.
Nothing i can keep up to.

ARGH! I'm pissed off with myself.
I'm sorry that i'm such a disappointment.

Where's the capricorn spirit?
Hang on there seek, you have to start making a change.

Next monday, everything will be different.
A brand new start for yourself.

JIA YOU!!!!

Chasing Pavements - Adele




I've made up my mind, don't need to think it over
If I'm wrong I am right, don't need to look no further
This ain't lust, I know this is love

But if I tell the world, I'll never say enough
'Cause it was not said to you
And that's exactly what I need to do if I'd end up with you

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

I build myself up and fly around in circles
Wait then as my heart drops and my back begins to tingle
Finally could this be it?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep on chasing pavements
Should I just keep on chasing pavements?

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?
Or would it be a waste even if I knew my place
Should I leave it there?
Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements
Even if it leads nowhere?

Many years ago, i could tell anyone/everyone about anything about me.

relationship/friendship/family/financial/health/studies/work

But as i grow up from those, i realised... it's no longer so easy to tell anyone anything.
I start to enjoy my private space tremendously.
Even i start to get emotional and all, I won't affect the others and neither do i have to put up the fake front.

I am still happy of course, just..... now, i am not so anymore.
A lot of things been running through my head, neither could i write them down in words or speak up about it.

I prefer to keep it within me now.

Who's unable to give me a better advise?
No one.

I have to learn to cure my own wound.
It's not tough.
We all know it.

I just need to clear my thoughts.
All by myself.

I've been spending too much time with friends.
Till the extend that i've lost myself somewhere among the soccer crowd.

I need my own life back soon.
I've stop reading. stop sleeping well. stop saving. stop concentrating.
I'm losing track with my plan.

5 more days till my holiday.
I'll probably need to escape from this island for awhile.

Something is not right.
I have to find it on my own.

Maybe... ...
Just give me 2 hours, i need this space very badly.

Dear Seekee,

Life has been fair to you. Stop complaining and start to feel content. The happiness you're seeking for is still faraway. Enjoy the moment and be good. Things will get better soon. Stay strong and stay happy. No one can put you down except yourself. It's time to love yourself more than the others. It's time to learn to adore yourself. It's time to be contented. 2 more years, hang on there and you will see the change in you. You'll survive.

Regards,
Your beloved, guardian angel.

I've been nursing the broken hearts of others.
Though so, i've been feeling the ache for all of them too.

It had kinda frightened me to be involved in any love contact.
I'm happier this way seriously.

Lonely i might sound(at times)
But it's better than nursing the broken heart.

I begin to lose faith in love and relationship.
2 years being single, never easy.

Hi, I'm single...happy....and unavailable
Thank you for your kind understanding.
Sorry for any inconvenience caused.

I hate to see my friends upset over such issues.
Totally waste of time and traumatising.
No, I don't mean waste my time nursing them.
But waste the time getting emotionally unstable.

Fuck you all cheaters and heartbreakers!




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今天， 寂寞似乎占领了我的躯壳。
我不开心。

不开心也许是正常的。
反而开心应变成了反常。

入入序序的心灵上的折磨，并不好受。
我好累，真的很累。

或许我想要更开心一点是一件比登天还难的事。
或许我不存在
或许我一辈子会像现在一样。

或许。。。。。。。。

生命中有太多的“或许“了。
我不禁感憾这一切所发生的。

“作天应是过去，今天是现在，明天则是未来。”

撑着！

（是时候多阅读华文了）

Time like this, always strikes me.

Where have you been?
How have you been?

I miss you